This is a sad place; students here know that. I missed it on the visit. (I also visited on 4/20. It happens.) I know in my quiet self that at it’s most unbearable, that heart-in-ankles loneliness I experience is not a weight moving will lessen. That said, I’m an emotional sponge and it’s useless to think I wouldn’t be happier in a happier place. Very simply, I need to decide is if I’m willing to leave the Bard writing department to do my soul-searching at a school with a healthier social environment. Owning my uncertainty is probably the first step. And, starting a pocket journal to help me get specific about my feelings. I mapped out some options during lunch today and met with the Dean about taking a year off or transferring. I think that counts as a good risk for week 1?